I faced my biggest fear and..

I get to do it again if I want.lol. I went in on Tues. for a Hysteroscopy on my uterus which my doctor used the term "surgery" which doesn't even go in my vocabulary because that is one of the biggest fears I have in life. I've never had surgery so the unknown is always scary but I needed to figure out what has been going on with me this past year. Call me crazy I know but we have been trying to have one more baby. Wanted to even the bunch of 3 kids out to 4 but this past year I have been having miscarriages and other issues. I went to a new doctor who said looking at an ultrasound that I had a mass of something in my uterus and he wanted to do this hysteroscopy to find out what exactly it is and get it out. Well that requires you to be put under and then have this scope put "up there" and then remove the mass. Well they found that I have a septum which is a piece of skin in the uterus that divides it which normally no one has. Most people with a septum have miscarriages (which explains the few I have had this past year) and if they are able to keep the pregnancy they usually have premature babies which explains Kaylee some and possibly Bridger's complications with pregnancy. So all in all I got that I'm very luck to have the 3 kiddos I have. The doctor wants me to see a fertility specialist to have more invasive surgery to remove the septum which he says sometimes it's no good either because then you have scar tissue to deal with and the placenta try to attach right too. So we will see what he says in a month or so and maybe go from there. But I was quite proud of myself actually going through with the procedure cause I had myself talked out of it many times. From what Burke said I made him laugh pretty good once I was coming too. I kept asking him if I was crazy since they didn't find anything persay. I've had a bad cold this past week so my voice sounded really great on top of it all. I have decided though with all the sickness I have had this past year I'm over due for a long vacation to get away from life and deal with reality later lol. Mexico is looking pretty good~haha.